Tuesday, 16 January 2018

A new year and a few positive thoughts...



First day back in the office so effectively first day that counts and I realised I am not totally unhappy about being back in London or the office which is a massive change from previous years where I was often depressed about it and thus wrote more or whinged more, this sprout of positivity I have had over the last year  or so is really hindering my creativity, it seems I am more creatively productive when down or angry.

The decision resolution was made by me and my committee of 7 schizo personalities to try to cultivate a more optimistic and positive creativity that is not necessarily fuelled by anger, depression or lack of sex. And so this is the first instalment.

I have managed to drop the kilos that clung to my hips for the last ten years, which gave me a massive boost in energy and libido confidence, of course now I have a new problem, I can’t shake the boys off my hips! DAMN!  I have also dated interviewed many candidates over the last year, none of which made it past the 2nd round, on the count of mostly shallow reasons that I won’t mention here, also men are gross (and NO I have not turned gay).

I found being angry and full of sarcasm was funny until it turned against me, although my writing and sense of humour flourished, my personal life suffered visibly from this and I had to choose between being funny or being happy, such seemingly simplistic and silly choices, but the results have been staggering.

I am so full of positivity these days it’s sickening (note picture above as exhibit A), I have to feign some crankiness sometimes just to trick my mind into spurts or creativity so I am able to continue to contribute to the ongoing dialogue on all aspects/dilemmas of the Algerian woman in London or elsewhere.

I have also since come out of anonymity – on this more news to come J

Until the next happy instalment, Happy New Year from me.

12 comments:

  1. Welcome back DZ-CHICK! Happy New year.
    Great to see the positivity and it's very contagious. Look forward to reading more instalments

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  2. Your enthusiasm gives me hope too, and who knows maybe this reclaimed hapiness will give birth to a new writing style. We keep reading you and wishing you well. Love

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    1. Yes same here, I am hoping to see a different style of writing emerge. I will try to publish more this year. Thanks for reading :) x

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  3. Welcome back! Very good to see you again. I'm happy to see you happy and positive, but it's a bit of a shock (in a good way). Hope we won't have to wait 6 months for the next instalment. ;-)

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    1. Thanks GBDZ I know!! shocking lol
      Hopefully not too long before another post - I promise :)

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  4. Homo Erectus (ergad ou bi3 leblad)18 January 2018 at 17:30

    ewww you came to the bled ou ma halabtinach ! Machi we said that we will take some kahwa ou tcharak somewehere if you come to Dzair ! Ou khalina m les dates/interviews hadou ! I'm sick of women conducting almost a police interrogation with a fake smile and anxious mimics... of course I'm not talking about us eventually meeting ! bessahtek el positive mindset ou at'halay fi rohek...

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    1. Oh crap!! yes we had agreed yes! damn!!! Charak and Kahwa sound amazing too. my loss clearly.

      I have conducted many many interviews, grew tired of them, as much as women as you say have the fake smiles etc...men are their usual flaky, deceitful and hairy selves! so...

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  5. I absolutely agree ! kiss !

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  6. Dz Chick we are waiting for your next post! :)

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    1. Can't do it man!! No motivation to write whatsoever! But since you asked...I promise I will publish something soon!

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  7. don't lose heart in it. i been reading your posts for a ling time now! when i was in the uk then i left it back to shithole lol.
    must b loneliness thats doing you bad.
    cheer up big gal! go get urself a nice english guy.

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